Grace that only a Forlorn Book Cover Knows

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Dear Self,

Have you ever picked up a book and decided to re-shelf it only to hear from your best friend six months later that it is one of her favorite books?  Have you ever seen someone from across the room and decided not to be their friend just because of the way they look?  Has someone ever told you something and you shut down your heart towards them because what they said stung?

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What Food and Fun Have in Common

Fun Without Food is Possible

Dear Self,

Tuesday morning you walked into Panera ordered a cookie and coffee and enjoyed both without a terrorizing thought because food was not your enemy.  You knew that food was fuel so when you were satisfied you were able to stop eating and sipping guilt-free.  It was a victorious moment worth savoring.  

But it hasn’t always been that way.  It used to be every time you decided to indulge, you couldn’t stop.  It was as if you were trying to make up for all those years you deprived yourself.  Food wasn’t your enemy anymore but it was still a beast.  So you embarked on journey number two: learning that while food is fuel, food is also fun.

Oddly enough, having fun and enjoying food have a lot in common.

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What Pumping Gas Taught Me About Food

Food as Fuel

Dear Self,

It was just three years ago that your mom spent 15 minutes coaching you on how and what to order at Starbucks.  You were so afraid of ordering you almost cancelled your coffee date!  You weren’t scared of the cashier.  You weren’t scared of coffee.  And you weren’t scared of spending money.  You were scared you wouldn’t have the courage to enjoy your drink.  In short, food had become your enemy.  You couldn’t think of it as fuel.  All you could think of were the calories you were about to ask for, pay for, and be expected to savor.

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How I’m slowing Down my Hamster Wheel Life

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Dear Self,

I feel like I’m in a hamster wheel.  It doesn’t matter how many times I rework my schedule, the wheel just goes faster.

As you’re reading this I’ll be putting on my creative/coordinator hat collecting everything I could possibly need for a ball.  Thursday I’ll pick strawberries with my family.  Friday, I’ll work and go to a women’s conference.  Saturday I’ll decorate and host that ball for 175 youth. Finally, Sunday will launch me into four straight weeks of traveling, decorating, doing make-up, brides-maiding, cooking, and maid-of-honoring.

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What Washing Dishes Taught Me About Valuing People

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Dear Self,

Do you know when washing dishes becomes delightful?

When you’re doing it next to your little brother and having a conversation together. That’s when washing dishes becomes delightful. You could have, of course, rushed through your sink of pots and pans completely ignoring that your brother was next to you. But you didn’t. And the moment you slowed down enough to value people over your projects, washing dishes became delightful.

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How Running through the Seasons Changed my Perspective

running through the seasons

Dear Self,

One of my favorite things about exercising outside is watching the seasons change before my eyes.

Yesterday, I ran through a giant’s tiara as crystal branches defied their lifeless state.  Today, straggly and leafless, the trees remind me of death.  Stepping out in a few days I know I will be greeted by tiny green shoots promising new life.

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